Sometimes I Feel Like Life Hates Me!

I swear that life hates me a lot... I am broken hearted, betrayed, sad and reaching my braking point. I was really selfish and I got hurt a lot and hurt someone too and now I feel so guilty because I think my past is hunting me and coming up to get me.... Is sad that I try so hard and yet I am never good enough and yet when I think I am going forward with my head up high I crash back Dow and I can't seem to see how to get back up and keep going. I am strong but yet I feel week. I taught I was wrong but I wasn't and that's what hurts the most I want to run away and cry and never ever come back. See I feel like my smile has been erase my face and I am not ok I just want to cry.... Somehow, I can't seem to find myself and as horrible as it might have been I am starting to wish that I go back to the emotional/mental and physical pain from years before was upon me than this hell but I can't tell anyone anything not how I fully feel because even if I feel so hurt and betrayed I still want to protected those who hurt me even if it cause me the bit of sanity I have left. I am not in control I swears this year has been set up to destroy me. I want to go and get help but where can I go where can I find the help when I don't even know what's wrong I feel like god have deserted me and I don't know anymore. Who is I and who am I? Who am I becoming now....?

This is my little space in the world and here is where I can get naked and let my true skin be shown. Thanks for this space thank you for being my space!

Thanks to my faithful readers for listening err reading to my madness.

Love you,
Elaine Nieves